Allhamdullillah, I'm at a real good place right now.

Am trying my hardest to get in ALL 5 prayers daily, and i just need to learn Dua-e-Qunoot to properly read the night prayer, Inshallah I'll have it memorized in no time!

I know i'm not losing any weight, I just hope i'm not gaining any >< i've noticed that lately i only eat once or twice a day, and the meals arent big, but i dont know..i just feel heftier - that sucks @_@

but anyways, other than that, i'm also trying to spend plenty of time with family, and take care of chores, and control my temper *thats the hardest one*

I'm in a really good mood especially right now because me and my brother just praayed and made Dua. I swear i woke up at 1:45am and my head was just OFF. i fell back asleep *but it didnt feel like it* and i think i woke up again at like 4:30 am. in my haze i had enough coherence to make excuses to myself to miss fajr prayer. I was like 'i havent gotten any sleepl; i have to go to the dentist; i'm too tired; i need to shower but cant cuz then abu will wake up; i have to get up anyways, lemme just get my sleep now, etc.'
and then...i couldnt sleep....not on my life. i just lay in bed going over my excuses over and over again and then i was just blank. and it was like my stupid brain finally kicked it self in the arse and was like 'get up, shower, and pray you idiot! you still have time!' so i rolled out of bed, went online for a few minutes to make sure i did have time, trudged into the shower, got out and prayed Fajr. then my brother prayed and we made Dua together, it was great! Inshallah I'll be able to do this forever on now.

yep, thats my main inspiration for now! I got online and looked up Dua-e-Qunoot, and the Ayatul Kursi and my mini-mission for now is to have both memorized! Wish me luck!